Saturday, September 10, 2011
The blood drive lasted until about 2100 the night, my center director called me and asked if I had anything left in me, I said yes and he told me to go to the Ruston Center they were backed up over there and needed help. At 0145 that morning we ran out of bags and didn't have another ice chest to put not one more unit of blood into. I gather up 20 ice chests with 25 units of blood a piece in them and start my trip back to Monroe.
By the time it is all said and done and I make it home to Bastrop Louisiana, shower and get into bed it's pushing 0300. I lay there in the dark listening to the sound of my a/c and fan running and think back to different times in my life. The Space Shuttle Challenger Disaster, The Reagan Assassination attempt, The Berlin Wall falling, The First Gulf War, all 4(at the time) of my children's births, my best friend David Terry (Termite) Robertson dying after that bull stepped on him. All of these different memories flooding me all at once. I realize I remember every place I was when something good or bad happened to me, if it was a life changing event I remember exactly where I was that day. But somehow this one was different, this was a blatant slap in our face. Someone took months if not years out of their lives to plan this horror on this country. As I laid there trying to shut my mind off from the days events, I found myself getting angrier and angrier. Not knowing who to turn my anger against, at this time it was still an unnamed faceless evil that did this. We had our suspicions but didn't know for sure and no one had yet took credit for it.
At 0500 my alarm clock goes off I reach over and turn it off, get up go take another shower so I at least look like I've had some sleep. That was pretty much how the next 4 days went for me. We got to the point we were having to turn donors away so we didn't deplete our donor population, but no one seemed to understand that so then we became an outlet for the peoples anger in and around Monroe. Finally on day 5 I get a much needed break, it's only for one day but let me tell you friends I don't think I moved the whole 24 hours I slept in that bed. The next morning when I got up was the first real time I had seen my kids since all this started, I walked into the kitchen for some breakfast before work and they are all looking at me. Everyone with the same helpless look on their face and the same fear in their eyes. Now don't get me wrong I realize every American felt those feeling and had that look (so I'm not saying we are anymore patriotic than anyone else,) all I'm saying is that was the first time like many of you I didn't know what to tell my kids. It was also the first time they looked at me like even though you're Daddy, you can't always protect us.
I sat at the table we all joined hands and prayed that morning, I ate my breakfast and to work I went. Realizing nothing in this world is guaranteed, not one second past this one is for certain. So now the people behind this who have taking so much from us has also given us something. Fear. The same fear that we felt when we watched those fiery smoking Towers fall, as we prayed for the people trapped in them and the families of all of those lost. We as a nation were scared, and looking for someone to blame. Then let's just say one idiot decided to step up and take the credit. Our fear turned to anger, our anger into hatred, we wanted Osama bin Laden's head on a stake. We were willing to go through anyone to do it, and now here it is 10 years later, Osama and Sadam both dead and we still have the same fear and anger in us.
Not only did we lose thousands of lives that day 10 long years ago, not only have we lost thousands of U.S.Military Soldiers in the long 10 years since that awful day. We also lost our innocence as a young country, we never dreamed in a million years that would happen to us. Just like the lost lives of all the dear loved ones we can never get back, our innocence is also gone forever. Let's never let anyone else ever steal anything from us again! I will not be posting tomorrow in observance of September 11, 2001, I will be spending the day at church and with my family. I pray for you all and wish you the very best!!! GOD BLESS AMERICA, WE WILL NOT TIRE, WE WILL NOT FALTER AND WE WILL NOT FAIL!
Until next time, HIL